(older writing)
Torn between sobriety and intoxication
Torn between giving my all and giving up
Torn between love and isolation
Torn between good and bad
Torn between clear conscious and guilty conscious
Torn between beginning and ending
Torn between holding on and letting go
Torn between then and now
Torn between decision and contemplation
Torn between God and sin
Torn between a smile and a tear
Torn between genius and stupidity
Torn between self-help and self-destruction
Torn between victory and defeat
Torn between moderation and abuse
Torn between right and wrong
Torn between sanity and insanity
Torn between life and death
That's some shit.
Just when you think things are looking up they'll go south 100x's fast.
No, there is no win.
There is no end.
There is no better.
Failure has become a permanent state.
Weary and too weak and tired to fight.
I can't stand to continue to fight only to face more failure at the end of the struggle.
Failure. Destined for failure.
Comments