Welcome to Sarah Scritch's Blog, Below the Surface: Bipolar and ADHD. I am a Los Angeles native who has ADHD and Bipolar II and is, among many other things, an artist/designer. My voice has been smothered by mental illnesses for the last 32 years and it is just now that I am getting the chance to come up for air. I am hoping to take this chance to share some of my story in hopes of offering a sense of comfort, hope or inspiration for readers. Since the age of 6 I knew that I was different from other kids. I knew that my mind, my emotions and my lens through which I saw the world was not how everyone else saw was experiencing it. The days were spent doing my best to act like everything was fine as to not draw any attention to myself. The nights were spent wide-awake alone in silent terror, trapped one on one with my mind. I had no way to articulate what I was experiencing. On paper, I had a good childhood so I only fueled my depression with overwhelming heaps of guilt and self-hatred. It wouldn't be until the age of 27 when I finally sought help that I learned that nearly all of those awful things I was experiencing had nothing to do with circumstance and everything to do with chemistry. I now know when I am at the darkest parts of my illnesses, that is the time that I need to speak up the most. This is, of course though, often when words fail me most. I hope that maybe putting words to my story might be able to help others find some of their own.
Be kind for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle. - Plato