Living with ADHD means warp-speed thoughts, constant noise, and a brain that won’t shut up. How guided breathing meditation helps me hit pause—without pretending my mind goes quiet.

A brutal week without sleep pushed me right back to a familiar truth: sometimes survival means surrendering control and letting Lithium take the wheel. As I wait for my next ketamine treatment, I’m hanging on by a thread — honest, scared, and doing everything I can to stay alive until relief shows up.

A raw, unfiltered look at the mental tug-of-war that comes with bipolar disorder, addiction, and the brutal swings between hope and despair. “Torn” captures the fight between self-destruction and survival in its most honest form.