A day after a ketamine treatment, my mood flipped every two hours — despair, okay, hopeless, okay again. Bipolar depression can feel like the worst roller coaster ride imaginable, and this week reminded me just how fast it can drop. Here’s how I navigated the slump, medication changes, and finding a bit of stability again.

Treatment-resistant depression is brutal, but after eight days since my last treatment, I finally felt a stretch of real stability. Sleep returned, mood leveled, and for once, the Wild Wild West of my brain quieted just enough to feel like I could breathe again.