A day after a ketamine treatment, my mood flipped every two hours — despair, okay, hopeless, okay again. Bipolar depression can feel like the worst roller coaster ride imaginable, and this week reminded me just how fast it can drop. Here’s how I navigated the slump, medication changes, and finding a bit of stability again.

For the first time in my life, ketamine therapy gave me a glimpse of real stability. After years of masking bipolar II, ADHD, and treatment-resistant depression with whatever I could find just to survive, I’m finally beginning to understand the beasts that have been living inside me all along.