Living with Bipolar II and ADHD means even “simple” self-care can feel impossible. Guided breathing became my unexpected lifeline—a small win I could actually keep. This is how slowing my breath helped steady my mind, soften the lows, and even transform the way I run.

When depression steals your words, silence isn’t a choice—it’s a symptom. This is how music becomes language when none is left.

Insomnia and hypomania tag-teamed my life in the worst way — ten days of almost no sleep, racing thoughts, and the kind of despair that makes tomorrow feel impossible. This is what it looked like, and how I pulled myself back before the spiral took me out.

After my sixth Ketamine treatment, something unexpected shifted — not just my depression, but the explosive rage episodes tied to bipolar disorder. This is the small but meaningful relief I didn’t see coming.

Depression doesn’t always look like collapse. Sometimes it looks like functioning until you can’t anymore. This is my story — and why asking for help shouldn’t require a crisis.

A brutal week without sleep pushed me right back to a familiar truth: sometimes survival means surrendering control and letting Lithium take the wheel. As I wait for my next ketamine treatment, I’m hanging on by a thread — honest, scared, and doing everything I can to stay alive until relief shows up.

Ketamine Round 4 cracked me open in ways I didn’t expect — a longer lift from bipolar depression, a deeper emotional unraveling, and a reminder of how quickly sleep deprivation can push me toward the edge. This is what the k-hole really looks like when you’re fighting to stay alive.

A raw, honest look at how exercise fits into the reality of depression. Running isn’t a cure, but sometimes it cuts through the mental chaos long enough to feel a moment of peace.

A raw and honest look at what it feels like to be present but not really here — a gritty reflection on depression, dissociation, and the terrifying ease of disappearing inside your own life.

A raw, unfiltered look at the mental tug-of-war that comes with bipolar disorder, addiction, and the brutal swings between hope and despair. “Torn” captures the fight between self-destruction and survival in its most honest form.

A raw, unfiltered dive into the questions we ask when we feel lost, misunderstood, and unsure of who we are becoming. This piece captures the confusion, pain, and quiet hope buried inside the simple question: why?