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The Beasts That Lie Within. I Had No Idea What was In Store for My Life.

I didn’t know better. I had no idea the beasts (bipolar, ADHD, depression) that I would be faced with slaying for the rest of my life.

Bipolar & Treatment Resistant Depression are a bitch. They can feel like the Wild West of Mood Shifts. Everyday, underscored by instability.

A few weeks ago I attempted to take my life. Well, I intentionally took too many pills in a desperate need to end the pain & get some sleep.

It has officially been over 2 weeks since my last treatment. I can say without a doubt, this past week especially, has been hell.

Ketamine Round 4 and bipolar depression had quite the stand off. For the first time, I feel as though I got some longevity out of my dose.

Remember the movie Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas? Well, with round 3 bipolar depression treatment we once again up’d the ketamine dose.

I couldn't help but wonder, "Was it a bad sign that the ketamine wore off so quickly after round 1?" My anxiety quickly popped up.

At this point in my life I feel as though I could be a pharmacist. I just never knew that Special K, Ketamine would be a part of my arsenal.